Well, it's offical. I'm pregnant with baby number 5! Our little family is all very excited that we will be getting bigger. Allie is hoping it's a boy. Teren wants twins, and to name them Eric and Ariel. I'm not sure Saria realizes yet, and Spencer is too young to know the difference. Josh is excited. He pretended not to be surprised, but I could tell by the smerk on his face. The family is really stepping up to the plate in helping get everything done. I am so thankful I have such an amazing husband and children. I am so excited that we are going in more ways than one.
I need to re-evaluate all my priorities. I'm so glad General Conference is tomorrow.
Friday, September 30, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
9-25-11
This morning I had an
amazing vision clarification of my public speaking mission and how it fits into
my family mission. It is truly amazing that
as we put the Lord first ALL things fall in line. I am so humbled and grateful.
Tonight as I was doing
some reading, I felt overwhelmed, insignificant and was beating myself up. How do I feel the desire to do better without
berating myself for not doing good enough?
In some ways I feel comfortable and at peace that sometimes the dark dot
voices are at bay. I realize this gives
me the responsibility to move forward and do great good in the Kingdom. My mind is somewhat under a cycle of low
level thinking where solutions are not evident.
I am so much looking forward to Kirk’s seminar in Nov to help me get my
head straight. I feel deeply that my
education with Kirk and Leslie will help me fulfill the vision that has
gradually been coming into focus and I saw clearly this morning.
These cycles of up’s and
down’s are somewhat perplexing to me, but I have learned at least a little not
to fight them and just continue to do the best I can with what I have, at least
for the time being.
I realized yesterday that
I have been trying to write the wrong book.
There is a more effective way to teach the Garden School
Sunday, September 18, 2011
7-7-11 Self View
My Self View
Some where in the back of
my mind lingers a story I once heard about a Monk. He spent many years in solitude and
learning. When he got out someone asked
him, “What was the most important thing that you learned during all those
years?” The Monk answered something to
the effect of, “That I am just the same as those murders and sinners that
overcrowd the jail cells.” Of course the
man asking the question didn’t understand and asked, “What do you mean?” The Monk said something like, “At any given
moment if I were to choose a different choice I would be where they are. I am no better than they. I have just made different choices.”
I have been thinking a lot
lately about our human tendency to view ourselves, and how that is often
incongruent with truth or the way others actually see us. As I begin this journey to share the journey
with you, I invite you to see me (in the words of Richard and Linda Eyre) as I
see myself: One in the struggle. This is
something I continually am reminded of through life’s experiences. I am not superior, nor am I inferior, to
other people who walk on two feet. I am
equal to each of them, placed in the same environment for the same
purposes. I am not righteous because of
a self-elevated perspective that my choices make me better than anyone
else. I learned from Chauncey C. Riddle
that righteousness is doing good to others.
There is no room for self-elevation in the responsibility to serve them.
Through my journey in the
12 Step process, I have recognized fully and completely that I am held up from
day to day by God’s sustaining hand.
Some days that support is removed so I can learn to be humble; and some
days I feel Him carry me so I can be patient with my children to give them the
love they need. I can take no credit for
who I am because He has made me all that I am, all that I know, all that
I feel, think, and do: He gives me power to do.
The only thing I can take credit, and not even completely on that point,
is the grit that I exhibit when I choose to get up every day at 5:00 am to study my scriptures- and even there I know He
gives me the motivation to do that. I
know that on any given day, if I were to choose to be disobedient and sleep in
that I would lose it, literally. Without
my determination to be obedient I am a raging selfish depressed woman, and that
makes me a horrible mother. I know that
if I were aimed just two degrees to the right or the left that I too would be
in that jail cell. I am who I am because
of God’s power, not mine. I am no better
than that person in the jail cell, I simply have made different choices and the
rug could be ripped out from under my feet if I were to make a different choice
on any given day.
Monday, September 12, 2011
Parable of the Peas
Parable of the Peas
Dear Friends,
I am very excited to invite you to join me on a living lesson of the PARABLE OF THE PEAS in honor of all my amazing new friends at Pillar of Light.
PHASE I: Spiritual Creation
Resources needed:
1. Buy Peas seeds from a local nursery or hardware store.
2. Prepare your garden space
3. Bring a desire to seek to learn the truth
PHASE II: The Work
During the winder garden season we will learn together from the classic of your garden The Parable of the Peas. Consider carefully the formation and spacing you wish your peas to grow. The planting schedule for peas here in Moapa Valley
Resourceful study sources:
§ “All New Square Foot Garden
My purpose is not, at least for now, to teach you how to garden. In the context of “Inteligro Math” http://shop.lemimentortraining.com/Inteligro-Math-104.htm
I want to inspire you to go find the answers you need and to support you in the journey. I will share with you the resources that have helped me along the way and look forward to all I can learn from you. If you have not read this short book, it would help immensely to understand the context of this experiment on life.
PHASE III: The Harvest
After watering your peas for 4 months, you will begin to see a harvest in the spring. It is at this point when things will really start ‘popping’! You will learn in direct proportion to the extent you seek. A friend of mine says she too hears her garden “speak” to her, and the more she listens, the more she learns. It is my belief that as we learn though Natural Systems (the Garden, the Home and the Body) that we will hear the perfect lesson for us at the perfect time from the Perfect Teacher.
The lessons I have learned from my garden have made me who I am. More than sharing my own lessons with you, I most desire to see you learn your own lessons 1st hand.
One point I hope to examine with you is the truth that “The way we do one thing is the way we do everything.” The way we approach the garden can help us learn much about how we approach other areas of our lives. A profoundly revealing question to ask your self is, “Where else does this show up in my life?” (I got this from Power Training at www. powerwithinus.com) Marcus Quintilian referred learning in Natural Systems when he said, “The mind is readiest to accept what it recognizes to be true of nature.” In other words, Natural laws are easy to understand when you observe them in nature. When we absorb the lessons life presents to us, we learn principles fluidly that are absorbed into our sub-conscious (or our spirits) because we SEE them. This process seems to create a pathway for principles to be lived out of a “BE” state instead of a “DO” state.
There is much to learn and I am so excited to begin this journey with you. I look forward to hearing from you the lessons we will learn and share together.
May the smile of heaven truly shine in your lives!
Pennie Rumsey
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